Loan day wishlist

Loan day wishlist

Hey, 

So as you all know I’ll be returning to university in September to study my 4th year and complete my PGCE. When loan day comes a shopping spree is needed so for now I’ll window shop and dream of having money.

Teacher clothes

I feel like I need to dress like a teacher if I want to be one.. my worst fear is that I’ll look younger than my students which is probably true because I look about 15. 

 
I’m going for the smart/casual look and I’m absolutely loving the idea of a trouser combination to make me look like I have a clue what I’m doing.

Beauty

I was converted to MAC lipstick from my best friend and bestest flatmate ever Em when she bought me my first taupe. I’ve loved them ever since and need more!

I NEED this palette, I’ve seen so many people with it and I need it in my life so this will be my first purchase 

I’ve got the travel size of this setting spray and I swear by it, it works a dream when you’re at work or when you’ve got a big night out planned so I’ll definitely buy the bigger bottle.
This is my favourite perfume ever, I get it every year from my Mam for Christmas but I’ve ran out so I need a restock


There will no doubt be more that I wish for so I’ll keep you updated!

Any ideas of what else I can buy for my future teaching career? Comment below 😊

Gem 

xo

Health update – week 2

Health update – week 2


So, if you read my first post about my invisible illness then you’ll know all about my colitis, if not go check it out!  https://life0fagem.wordpress.com/2017/08/09/invisible-illness/

I’m currently on the second week of my six course steroid treatment and absolutely nothing has changed. I’m still constantly needing the toilet, blood in my stool (sorry for the detail) and constant abdominal pain, I know you’re supposed to give the medication a chance but surely it should have began making a difference to my condition now? 

I always feel like steroids are a waste of time, the doctor said it would give me more energy which it hasn’t, she said the bleeding would stop, which it hasn’t and she said I’d feel a lot better on a day to day basis, which I don’t.. 

Hopefully they’ll begin to work soon, I’ve got a checkup appointment in September so I’ll keep you all posted

Have you ever had steroids before? What’s your experiences?

Gem 

xo

August goals

August goals

Even though it’s like mid August, I need to start giving myself some structure and goals to head towards whilst I’m off uni and waiting for the next part of my life to begin so here goes…

Lifestyle

• I must try to drink more water, I don’t drink enough. The problem is I hate the taste, I have been drinking more than usual though so that’s a good start 

• Get out and do more! I’m always either stuck in the house or at work, I need to walk more and get outside 

• See more of my best friends Em, Sophie and Demi. I miss them too much 

• Stay ontop and in control of my medication, I’m so bad at remembering things but I’ve got myself into a routine of eating breakfast and taking my medication

Academic

• Even though I’m not at university yet I do have a reading list to complete before I start my new teaching course so that would be a good idea to start reading those 

That’s probably all for now, these goals should be lifetime goals not just August but it’s a start 

What are your goals for this month?

Gem

xo

Relaxin’ and chillaxing

Relaxin’ and chillaxing

Yesterday I took my best friend Demi to Redworth Hall in Durham as a celebration for her giving birth to her gorgeous son Isaac (post to follow of his gorgeous face). We wanted some chill time and to give Demi a chance for a good nights sleep and a well deserved trip away.

We arrived at around 3pm and checked into our room, the building is amazing and so picturesque.  

We had a quick dip in the pool and relaxed in the jacuzzi and looked forward to our three course meal on the night time. Which is all we ever look forward to is FOOD.

I had a red onion and Brie tart tatin for starter which at first I was like ew that sounds disgusting but I actually really enjoyed it and it was probably the best part of the meal. Onto mains and I had a burger (obvs) and Demi had mushroom lasagne, both very nice, I didn’t finish all of mine which is no surprise because I eat like a mouse.


I obviously still had dessert because who doesn’t? 


The menu made the puddings sound really posh, I got lemon “cheesecake” and it came and it was deconstructed, people are obsessed with desconstructed dessert. It was very yummy though!

After dessert we went for a cocktail in the lounge bar, bearing in mind the cocktails were £8 each we could only have one and the fact that Demi had just given birth 3 weeks earlier she couldn’t handle a lot of alcohol 


I had a cosmopolitan which was the strongest thing I have ever tasted, it blew my lips off with one sip because it had lemon flavoured vodka.. very bitter! Demi had a mojito which she was convinced had half a bottle of rum in

The morning after and it was check out time 😞 

We went for a full English breakfast and then spent the rest of our morning in the jacuzzi, steam room and one final dip in the pool. We also played mini golf for all of 5 minutes until my Mam arrived early to pick us up. 



So overall we had a lovely relaxing trip away. Love you Dem 😘

Let me know what you think in the comments ⭐️ 

Gem 

xo

Student photographer/aspiring teacher

Student photographer/aspiring teacher

Hey,

As most of you already know I am a photographer, I’ve studied photography at college and have just finished my 3 year degree at Sunderland University. It meant so much to me to be able to pursue a career in something that I have always been passionate about from the age of 6 when I received my first ever camera (tweety pie Polaroid). Photography is a hard industry to get into, with 30 other students on your course wanting to do the same as you plus hundreds of other University students hoping to break into the industry.

I have been photographing weddings/events since I was 16 and posted my first gumtree ad advertising my services as a photographer, from then I’ve photographed over 30 weddings and I love every single one. Creating images that people can look back on and remember for a lifetime is such a precious gift to give to someone. I’ve recently cut back on weddings because of health reasons and have stopped photography for a while as I head into my next career adventure… TEACHING!

I decided to apply for my PGCE at Sunderland which I happily got accepted to! I did a 3 week placement at a high school helping students to understand university life and we had to put together a project based on my subject that I studied. I had so much fun and absolutely loved seeing the kid’s progress and it made me feel like I was making a difference so in 1, 2 or even 3 years time I could be Miss Carr!

I want to teach at college level in photography to allow the students to have the same passion I do and allow them to see that you can have a career in something you love and follow an arts pathway.

Here’s to the future!

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Gem

xo

The day I lost my hero

The day I lost my hero

This post will probably be the most important and most emotional on my blog. For those of you who don’t know my life changed drastically at the tender age of nine when I lost my Dad unexpectedly. This absolutely changed my life and broke my heart into pieces, I think about him every single day and even more at special occasions. He wasn’t there to see me grow up, get engaged, graduate and will never walk me down the aisle or dance with me at my wedding, something that can never be changed and I will never forget.

I’ll never forget the day that my mam sat me, my brother and sister down on the day before father’s day. We had just returned from a youth group making cards and gifts for our Dad for father’s day and we were so excited to give him them. I knew something was wrong because we were picked up early from the group from our next door neighbour instead of our Dad. We were all sat down and told that he was rushed to hospital as he was poorly and he’s went to heaven and wouldn’t be coming home. At the age of nine I understood what was being said, my dad was gone and he wasn’t coming back.

I’ve also been a sensitive person growing up but losing my Dad made it even worse, I’d get very upset at school when people spoke about their families and fathers, which is understandable for a young girl. I went through a tough time at school, being bullied for losing my dad and belonging to a single parent family which was disgusting and kid’s can be cruel sometimes. Time has went on and I’ve grew up, now 21 I still miss him everyday and wish he was here to see all the changes in my life and my families life, he would have loved to meet his two little granddaughters and watch us all grow up.

I’ll never forget you Dad, love you always.

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Gem

xo

Invisible Illness

Invisible Illness

I wasn’t going to write this post until later on but recently I’ve been poorly with flare ups of my invisible illness. When I was 17 years old I diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis. I probably had it before this but didn’t realise the severity of my symptoms and hid it from my Mam for about 6 months. For those who don’t know what colitis is, here is a definition..

Ulcerative colitis  is an inflammatory bowel disease (IBD) that causes long-lasting inflammation and ulcers (sores) in your digestive tract. Ulcerative colitis affects the innermost lining of your large intestine (colon) and rectum. Symptoms usually develop over time, rather than suddenly.

So in english.. that means that I suffer with ulcers inside my body that effect my colon and large intestine, this disease is something that I have to live with for the rest of my life and the rest of this post is going to be my experience living with UC. (It’s going to be a long one)

Diagnosis

So, as I mentioned above I was properly diagnosed with UC when I was 17, this was after many blood tests, cancer screenings, stool samples and colonoscopy’s. UC is something that is often mistaken for IBS which is completely wrong and ten times worse. I was suffering with symptoms of UC for about 6 months before I actually went to the doctors, this included fatigue, blood in the stool and abdominal cramps. I got so scared thinking I had cancer that I didn’t tell any of my family until it was causing me severe pain.

Managing UC

So its now been 4, nearly 5 years since I was diagnosed and over this period of time I have learned to control my UC with countless hospital appointments and countless medications. I was moved from medication to medication and nothing worked for a good 2 years but finally this year I was referred to a specialised IBD nurse who helped me understand my UC and my own body and was eventually put on something that worked and controlled my symptoms! Unfortunately, I was under the impression that you couldn’t take medication under the influence of alcohol and I recently went on holiday and didn’t take any medication so I’m flaring up at the moment and have been put on a 6 week course of steroids to push me back into remission. Some days I have good days and other days I can hardly move because of the pain and I am constantly back and forwards to the toilet.

Symptoms

Luckily I don’t have the worst case of UC but I still suffer from symptoms on a daily basis which include fatigue, blood in stool and abdominal cramps. I’ve also had anaemia four times due to my UC and had two iron infusions to help get my iron levels normal again.

Medication

I have been on approximately 14 different medications to try and control my UC, some just didn’t work for me and others were too uncomfortable for me to take. I am currently taking suppositories which seem to help (when I remember to take them).

Realisation

I had a bit of a breakdown the other day coming back from hospital with the realisation that this is my life now, I have a disease. Something that is only controlled by medication, which is a hard thing to get my head around. But I’m learning to live with it and I have a lot of support from my boyfriend and family.

 

Well, that’s my story.

If you have any questions about UC or myself, please comment below!

Gem

xo